I feel in a sense I am in my in between phase of life. I am not really college age anymore and struggle to fit in with that group. I am not married or have children so I don't fit in with that group either. So going through school was a little harder for me and I have lost sight of who I am.
I also am having mixed feelings about graduating. I am excited beyond belief and am proud of what I have accomplished, but at the same time I am terrified. I question and over analyze myself daily. Am I going to be a good teacher? Will I make it? What if I can't find a teaching job? etc. Again I say it is a constant internal struggle.
I can say without a doubt that I have had one of the best support systems anyone could ask for. I have had people by my side who have really helped shape me into the person that I am today.
As a teacher I honestly owe my knowledge to two people: Jacque and Lisa. Both of them have shown me the true meaning of the word Teacher, they have shown me how to be an effective teacher, and most importantly they have shown me how to have a passion for teaching. I have can honestly say that I would not change a thing from my student teaching and internship experiences.
I have learned so much and consider it such a blessing to have had the privilege to work with Lisa and Jacque. I know that God had a purpose for putting me with these ladies, and am so happy to have gained two great role models and friends. Not to mention the several other friendships I have made along the way. I also have been so blessed by the school that I am in now. I got placed in such a loving, fun, Christian classroom. Trusty, Lisa, Pam, Brenda, Sarah you have no idea the impact you have made on my life and I will never be able to repay you for the learning experiences you have provided. What an incredible experience this has been!! You ladies are one of a kind and I will never ever forget you! If I am half the teacher that these ladies are I will consider myself to be so so blessed.
As my student teaching comes to a close and graduation is 10 days away I have realized that for the first time in a long time I kinda feel lost. I fear the unknown and the stepping out of a routine and not knowing what will happen next. I am so unbelievably sad to be leaving these kids and the school that I am at, and I literally cry just thinking about it. I don't know what I will do with myself after next week.
